| A Special Message |
There are a few times in what I do that a animal grabs a huge piece of my heart. Not that I
don't love them all but I have to keep my heart protected so I can adopt them out to
someone who will love them forever. The longer the animal is with me the harder it is.
Hope was the exception. She required 24 hour care for the entire 35 days of her life. From
feeding, bathing to wiping her butt and keeping her from laying in her waste when she
couldn't walk.
A few times in rescuing does a animal captivate and grab the hearts of the public. Hope
did that. To see the people at the TSC Show that saw her stand for the first time and hear
the audible gasps, then to see the tears of people that were around her when she stood
and them saying prayers for her was incredible. They all witnessed a miracle, and will
never forget it. Then you had the people that came here to see her and held her, or the
ones that watched for HOURS on skype and routed her on and falling in love with her via
web cam. Everyone loves a rescue story but few get to feel like they are right there with
them like I try to do. By doing that I open another door, the pain of the loss of one.
I am still looking for the reasoning for Hope leaving us after beating the odds put against
her. I had told some close friends and family about her not eating well, getting wobbly
again and her head would drop. Showing neurological issues. I had just posted pictures of
her laying with Stinkie whom I quickly blamed for her death and decided that he was set to
be put up for adoption. Several hours later I realized he was not the cause he was trying
to help her get up. But in the moment you forget everything that happened before then
and look for blame. No.... there were no bites or anything like that on her.
The only other time a loss of this magnitude touched so many people was the loss of my
beautiful little girl Mira. With that loss and me ready to quit, brought into my life a
wonderful young girl whose heart was as big as mine and whom I now consider one of my
daughters, CARLY. That was the blessing out of that loss.
I do not consider myself an angel, a hero, nothing like that just a person who needs these
animals in order to get myself out of bed every morning as much as they need me . With a
loss I always question myself and my abilities. I always forget the ones that have made it,
are adopted and having a wonderful life.
I have to thank everyone who was blessed to be a part of Hope's short life and those that
support what I do. All the condolences and love being sent my way really helps me threw
things like this.. Please keep supporting us and continue to open your heart to the ones
that are here and the ones that will come in.. Hope was here for a reason, I just have to
find out what it is.
Please take with you that she touched you also for a reason. She taught us that if you
fight hard enough you can do what others say you can't. You just have to fight. She taught
me more things then I thought was possible. She will always have a piece of my heart and
will always be guiding me in what I do.
We were all blessed to have had her touch us so deeply.
Thank you all so much for your support, love and understanding. Please keep us in your
prayers so I can heal from this and receive the message I was supposed to. Even though
I'm deeply crushed, and a part of my heart is just in pieces, I know I have to keep going.
She was brought into our lives for a reason so lets not let that go to waste..
I love you all and could not continue without the love you give back.. Hugs to all
